I have spent so much of my life trying too hard....
To be a good person/mum/wife/daughter/sister/friend
To be a successful business woman
To have 'enough' money
To be a 'good' artist
To write a great blog
To create a great product
To have a great brand
To have answers to problems
To make a difference
To do the 'right' thing
To be noticed
I am tired......
Does any of it really make a difference?
I sit at my desk, like I do every morning, pen in hand, ready to write something 'good' or draw something amazing, or solve a business problem.
What if.....
I just stopped trying too hard?
I just had fun?
Let go?
Stopped caring quite so much?
Let others solve the problems?
Listened to the birds?
Made art just for me?
Walked in nature?
Read a book?
Made a cake, just for me?
Listened to my favourite music, alone?
Wrote a blog post, just for me? (f**k the SEO, tags, perfect title, ideal reader, links and freebies to tempt people to join my mailing list)
Made new products, just for me
Threw away the planners? (or maybe re- use as art supplies)
Drank tea with my loved ones without trying to solve their problems for them. Just listen and love them - maybe share my cake with them!
Became happy with being 'not noticed'?
Became happy with just being Sara Jane?
This is Sara Jane, 56, perimenopausal, on HRT (which has saved her sanity). A woman who has desperately wanted to be an artist all her life, has worried constantly about money or lack of (even though she has always, always been ok!) and has spent most of her 56 years on this planet, trying too hard instead of having fun.
She has the best family EVER, who she loves dearly and wants to spend more quality time with. She has struggled with stress for 15 years and is ready for a break, so she has declared that she is retiring from self induced stress this year, to spend more time making art without agenda, doing things she loves with people she loves and generally simply enjoying being alive for a bit.
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